Self Induced Mutation

I wish I never felt this way
but helplessness is what I'll pay
to change myself, to pass the test
not knowing if i'm cursed or blessed.

I simply feel complicated
dark and fake, infatuated
Oh the pain that fills my stead
What's the matter? Feed your head!

Emotional anxiety
lost in my own hypocrisy.

How I feel the utter anguish
of self-induced mutation.